broken

i will never be able to love somebody 

because 

every time i get into some type of relationship 

i seem to make it self destruct

so i'm not the one getting hurt 

but that's not true 

in my head  

i know the truth 

i'm hurting my self 

because i enjoy the pain 

because in my head 

all i think their thinking is 

" i have to get away from her "

i have to get away from her "

over and over again 

and they'll never come back

 when they get the chance to leave 

but who would come back 

i know i wouldn't

so i destroy all of my relationships 

so i'm never the toy 

the one that lays broken 

on the floor 

i refuse 

to look weak 

in front  of some one 

i once loved 

so i'll be the one who 

isn't the toy 

for once that's  what i'll be 

and i'll be happy for a short while but not 

forever .